To my Honorable Wife …!

I was just sharing my thoughts at the tea table today evening. I got a horrible dream the night before. I saw myself relaxing in a chair in the sun one fine morning in winter. I realized I was engaged and my family was all busy with the planning and arrangements for my marriage which is scheduled after a week. I was lost in my own world thinking over post marriage routine and responsibilities. Something at the back of it was moving me a lot. I was somehow not satisfied with my decision to go ahead with my to-be life partner. Future looked dark minding the expectations I have. I was stuck to call off the wind as it seemed too late to light the torch. Frustration was mounting and depression was swallowing me!

I got up with a jerk and for a minute I was too occupied to catch hold of my breath. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and whispered to myself… Thank God I am still single!

The fear of getting married; the uncertainty that surrounds you with the thought of unexpected surprises will prove nothing better than a bunch of compromises, Compromise at the cost of independence, at the mercy of togetherness, for the sake of partnership, with the promise to commitment. It will bring in burden to overload you physically, mentally and even emotionally. For everything you plan, you act, you aspire, and you will be forced to think of 2, place for 2, room for 2, path for 2 and it goes on and on!

The fear to miss the train; if not now then when? It’s going to happen sometime then why not get prepare to pay the cost; at least you will have the head start to minimize it. From here begins the quest and search for the best. You never know what you need as it’s the first time you are heading for it and it always works that way. You discuss with friends, read books, analyze it in and out but there is no limit to it. You are tired, you go out to relax, you see some new face and again the question, Is she the one? And by the time you are done with your coffee you have analyzed all the faces around there!

Fears apart, I know I will be a good husband. I am assured I will take care of her and its going to happy married life. The overconfidence that boosts my capability to keep anyone happy makes me rethink, what if I won’t get the share of my happiness? So the quest and the search for the best is well justified!