I was just sharing my thoughts at the tea table today evening. I got a horrible dream the night before. I saw myself relaxing in a chair in the sun one fine morning in winter. I realized I was engaged and my family was all busy with the planning and arrangements for my marriage which is scheduled after a week. I was lost in my own world thinking over post marriage routine and responsibilities. Something at the back of it was moving me a lot. I was somehow not satisfied with my decision to go ahead with my to-be life partner. Future looked dark minding the expectations I have. I was stuck to call off the wind as it seemed too late to light the torch. Frustration was mounting and depression was swallowing me!
I got up with a jerk and for a minute I was too occupied to catch hold of my breath. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and whispered to myself… Thank God I am still single!
The fear of getting married; the uncertainty that surrounds you with the thought of unexpected surprises will prove nothing better than a bunch of compromises, Compromise at the cost of independence, at the mercy of togetherness, for the sake of partnership, with the promise to commitment. It will bring in burden to overload you physically, mentally and even emotionally. For everything you plan, you act, you aspire, and you will be forced to think of 2, place for 2, room for 2, path for 2 and it goes on and on!
The fear to miss the train; if not now then when? It’s going to happen sometime then why not get prepare to pay the cost; at least you will have the head start to minimize it. From here begins the quest and search for the best. You never know what you need as it’s the first time you are heading for it and it always works that way. You discuss with friends, read books, analyze it in and out but there is no limit to it. You are tired, you go out to relax, you see some new face and again the question, Is she the one? And by the time you are done with your coffee you have analyzed all the faces around there!
Fears apart, I know I will be a good husband. I am assured I will take care of her and its going to happy married life. The overconfidence that boosts my capability to keep anyone happy makes me rethink, what if I won’t get the share of my happiness? So the quest and the search for the best is well justified!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Whatever Happen, happens for Good…!
Life is Good says LG… Death is also Good says Sunil!
CBSE board, 6th standard, English book, some chapter, there was a story about a king and his minister. The minister was a strong believer of ‘Whatever happen, happens for good’. The king got hurt in an accident and the minister gave the explanation that it’s for some good. The very next day king was caught by some people in the jungle but was spared from being sacrificed as he was injured. The accident saved king’s life!
I was very much moved by the incident and there is a reason for that. I hesitate to take decisions and let the things go as they are going. I prefer a situation where the sequences of events are defined. It’s tough for me in case I am required to decide the next event. Because of this easy go nature I tend to believe in the Title.
On the other hand I also believe that nature has its own way to reward and punish. It allows the movements (flexibility to take decisions) to a certain level and once the threshold is reached, it will no more give you a chance to choose. Things will be forced on you my nature, and then when the storm settle down it will let you free again to take your own decisions. The correction will always be there. So whatever you decide today there will be a correction tomorrow as the path is defined, there is a unique 1 to 1 mapping between individual and destiny, and it can’t be defied.
On the contrary I wonder why the word ‘bad’ came to existence if everything is good and for good only. May be I am missing out on certain aspect of life which teaches one the functions to convert Good to Bad and Bad to Good. Or is it the cause effect relation that covers my thought freedom to identify the bad. It may be the case that I never plan for future, so whatever I come across is a surprise and I am too optimistic to call it Good or too afraid to accept it in the name of Bad. How can I deny the very existence of the wheel of fruits which cycles from good to bad and bad to good? Am I too human to see the bad or I am too animal to greed for the good!
I feel it’s the way of reacting to the natures call. Situations demand you to take it, circumstances imposes it on you. Good and bad are like 2 glasses, Black and White. Sometimes you are placed to put on White glass and at other times the black one. Some people are more comfortable with one glass than another. Some people are superstitious about White Glass and never want to try the black, and say … Whatever happens, happens for GOOD!
CBSE board, 6th standard, English book, some chapter, there was a story about a king and his minister. The minister was a strong believer of ‘Whatever happen, happens for good’. The king got hurt in an accident and the minister gave the explanation that it’s for some good. The very next day king was caught by some people in the jungle but was spared from being sacrificed as he was injured. The accident saved king’s life!
I was very much moved by the incident and there is a reason for that. I hesitate to take decisions and let the things go as they are going. I prefer a situation where the sequences of events are defined. It’s tough for me in case I am required to decide the next event. Because of this easy go nature I tend to believe in the Title.
On the other hand I also believe that nature has its own way to reward and punish. It allows the movements (flexibility to take decisions) to a certain level and once the threshold is reached, it will no more give you a chance to choose. Things will be forced on you my nature, and then when the storm settle down it will let you free again to take your own decisions. The correction will always be there. So whatever you decide today there will be a correction tomorrow as the path is defined, there is a unique 1 to 1 mapping between individual and destiny, and it can’t be defied.
On the contrary I wonder why the word ‘bad’ came to existence if everything is good and for good only. May be I am missing out on certain aspect of life which teaches one the functions to convert Good to Bad and Bad to Good. Or is it the cause effect relation that covers my thought freedom to identify the bad. It may be the case that I never plan for future, so whatever I come across is a surprise and I am too optimistic to call it Good or too afraid to accept it in the name of Bad. How can I deny the very existence of the wheel of fruits which cycles from good to bad and bad to good? Am I too human to see the bad or I am too animal to greed for the good!
I feel it’s the way of reacting to the natures call. Situations demand you to take it, circumstances imposes it on you. Good and bad are like 2 glasses, Black and White. Sometimes you are placed to put on White glass and at other times the black one. Some people are more comfortable with one glass than another. Some people are superstitious about White Glass and never want to try the black, and say … Whatever happens, happens for GOOD!
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